CORPO-RATs we are!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We all are in corporate world today...most of us. and what is it all about. ya ya the same way they said in the movie trailer of “corporate” (starring my favorite Bips)...paisa,power and politics.

When I used to be in reliance........ me and my few good friends used to sit in my room in a secluded township house provided by our company and talk about how our managers and the upper level management used to play politics...how to get rid of our office issues...where is this company going ...the future..bla bla bla.....but I have come to believe at this point of my career that we small people ..Like engineers will never know what is going on at the top and we are just few small rats trying to increase few thousands in our salaries every year....

We will never reach "there”. I think u all know what I mean by "there"......the business is about big bucks and big people. we all r nothing more than skilled labors...we don’t know who are the actual people playing the game and those game players are never interested in people at our level......life just goes on and we will end up leaving our "success" to our children which will include at the max....few small property investments.....a bank balance in few lacs...one or two cars...and our thinking......that’s it!!!!!!

Hey hey...I cant see the future...but this is what happens in 99.99% cases and I am not sure if we fall into that 0.01%....but I am almost sure we are part of the 99.99% flock.

Also this whole idea of categorizing people is not one of my pessimistic moods...its just a thought I happen to encounter after watching the movie "corporate"...actually this whole idea is not a result of the impact which this movie has made on my mind. This is what I have been thinking always and it was always there somewhere at the back of my mind, from the day I started understanding the corporate jargon a bit...this movie just pulled it out and I wanted to share it wid u all.

This movie has made me believe that actually the "downfall of system" can happen....like my favorite author ayn rand says in Atlas Shrugged. She also shared the same idea. That in a corrupt system when there is a big failure everyone starts looking for a scapegoat...like in this movie Miss bipasha baasu is made the "Bali ka Bakra" when the company's MD is in danger due to his mistakes. Rather incompetence...his corruption...greed for money at the cost of ethics...

We all are trying our best to climb the corporate ladder as fast as possible....we all want to taste the flavor of success....big success ...I am not sure how many of you agree...but at least I strive for the same..a big HIT....But I have no idea if I will also have to see the same truth ...same ugly truth when I reach the top!! what will I do??? Or may be due to our values and thinking we will never make it so big, to finally see the bitter truth..........Or by the time we reach there we will also be like them...ugly and corrupt.....Does anyone know where we are leading our lives???????????

Do think friends..because we are already part of the game....may be not directly but we are. I always talk with Sid that we Brahmins do not possess the crudeness and ruthlessness to do business.....we can just be slaves the way we are today.....but ultimately we want to be "there"..to play the game.....but will we ever be able to reach "there" to play the game with our kind of rules?.....Or still there are people left in this market who are playing the game with our kind of rules and their hands are still clean from dirt..........

So will this idea force me to withdraw!! Or will I stop striving for success in my corporate career.....or will I change my profession....no guys..nothing like that. I will continue..and you all will as well....but lets make it a point that in case we all make it BIG in our lives...we will stop and ask each other how much corrupt we have become and how many times we played fair to win a game.....

Adulterous chemistry….!!

Off late I have been thinking about the chemistry between man and woman...oh please don’t misunderstand me...this is not another ‘men are from mars and women are from Venus’ forum...nor it is about the "C" word...

I am simply going to talk about few things which always put me into contradictory thinking...

Yesterday when I was having lunch with my friend who is married. He was gaping at one gorgeous female (by the way the most gorgeous one has recently resigned and left to somewhere near mumbai...) and I just happen to say " abe teri to shaadi ho gai hai fir tu kyon use ghoor raha hai?" then he said “lets argue on this after your marriage...and as of now don’t disturb me. She is damn hot!!”

SO is it that the chemistry should stop playing its natural role after you get committed to one person!! Or is it just our SOCIETY! Isn’t this natural pull which we feel….Which some people have named as 'infidelity' in moral dictionary...or is it just, we all can’t break this barrier created inside our brains....?

Everyone will agree that regardless of commitment/marriage....we all feel something called " attraction " every now and then, towards the opposite sex ...but we just feel it...enjoy it silently deep inside, and forget it....without letting our partner know about it.


If it is condemned to be unfaithful in action then doesn’t same apply to THOUGHTS tooo...can anyone control our mental reflexes?...these short lived chemical reactions in our brain?.. The question here is “can you control this yourself?" and I believe the answer is NO for most of us....it can be suppressed but never can be stopped from coming....because we don’t even know when will it happen….nature is always unpredictable.

Now can someone explain....or draw the line between what is morally correct and what is not?? And if someone wants to draw this line...then who the hell are they?? And why should we give this right to them.

The battle is between natural instincts and social system. And this battle will always go on for another million years...till humans come up with a new social system which is based on natural rights rather than man made hollow morals...

Am not a rebel....I too feel that we should be like the way we are...but every time I happen to face this MALE inside me…in situations like, seeing a gorgeous girl, lady, actress anything that is Human +Opposite sex +Sexy in short. I too feel that chemistry and then forget about it after a while…since am single may be I still have the freedom to go beyond just feeling that chemistry (according to our hypocrite society)…..But anyone married in my place (or if the opposite sex is married)…then the game ends there itself.

And why can’t we expect our partners to be LOYAL (I mean those who don’t go beyond feeling the chemistry), when we too behave the same way and control our natural instincts infinite times in our life.

You might be feeling I sound like a confused person, who agrees to society also….wants his partner to be loyal also and on the other hand want to concord with his natural instincts too… Now this is the contradictory thinking I was talking about in the start. Don’t you people also feel the same? Haven’t anyone of you given a thought to this???
Ha ha….I know someone might say we can’t just go ahead and live a jungle life when we are staying in a society. My friend if we cant live in a jungle then just tell me one thing…where to draw the line while defining ‘infidelity’…Or where to draw the line between mental and physical actions without being called a hypocrite???

I can talk nonstop about my crazy thoughts on this topic……but will stop here. May be there is no end to this contradiction..........

I am back

Hi all........

I am back. And this time again my nostalgia brought me here to talk to you all....

But believe me i will not bore you guys with my melancholy here. Though life is not so happening after leaving mumbai....i have adapted to this new way of life.

Right now i am in night shift ...working on some freaking network issue...trying to troubleshoot the root cause and suddenly i felt like.......what the hell.....why am i doing all this at this hour of night .... when the whole world is sleeping......fuck the network( saying this in a better way with the middle finger up )......let the customer be down....who cares.... and i thought of changing my mood in a flash .....i started playing " rim jhim gire sawan...sulag sulag jaaye man " by Kishor Da on my pc and the moment i imagined bachchan and mausami chettarji on marine drive with heavy rainfall( as per the song situation )... i missed all those rainy days in mumbai.. ...in fact in mumbai half the year is rainy season. And that is one of the reasons i love mumbai .....

I remember the lonawala trip we had once......... sexy it was...too gud. just too gud a trip.... three cars and the whole gang..including my CCC people ....me,sid and saurabh were diving repeatedly into that small deep area just below the waterfall.......The second trip to lonawala was another freaky story.....suddenly one night we guys had a crazy idea( i am saying our idea because i don wanna blame sid for his "brilliant" idea once again ) of going to panvel highway and having a dhaba dinner. and after the dinner another freaky idea of going to lonawala on two bikes and venki's car..... i wish i still had those pics...amazing it was

In gurgaon here there is hardly any rain in the rainy season. practically there are two seasons....summer which is extremely hot and winter which is extremely cold. but first time in my life i bought so much winter wear and i tell u guys if u like those sexy jackets and stuff...in delhi-gurgaon you get ample opportunity to flaunt your designer winter wear in style.... i will tell u in my next blog about the summer as that season is yet to be experienced.....

Sid here also i always decide in the start of the month while paying the gym fees that i will go regularly this month...but can never make it...here i have an excuse of shifts…… I have started preparation for my next cisco certification also. Lets see how far I succeed in that…….. ; - ) hey ragha what happened to your MBA..where have you reached man???? I heard that malar is expecting… I swear …yaana is gonna have a yanakutty very soon…… so sweet.

I am looking forward for may ..as my mom and bro will be coming here for some days….priya will also come for couple of days in may… I am saving my leaves and comp. Offs which I get for doing shifts on holidays…….. I am also looking forward to july. I hope to see u all n Chennai when our dear friend prasanan will FINALLY get married J
When will Sam bitch leave reliance…. Sam are you listening!!!! Last time I went to Mumbai in march I went to DAKC again …..which I thought I would never visit again after I resigned. I was scared that I will feel nostalgic and sad when I will go there. But to my surprise it was a complete different experience. I made a visitor’s pass on gate-3 with sid and went to D block. Apart from sid and sam no one was so imp. To meet ..but I spent the whole day meeting diff. People whom I knew by any chance during my tenure in reliance. I met my boss too and he spent almost half n hour chatting with me in his cabin ( surprising isn’t it ). We ended our meeting with his valuable advise to get married. The place was not so homely anymore…. I mean no one was there.. and I realized thatit is friends who make the place so lively and memorable…..and that time almost all of my frenz had left reliance…… Now we all are in diff. Places…trying to keep in touch by calling sometimes…..mailing sometimes….but u know what!!! As I told in my last blog….distance does make a difference………..we haven’t forgotten each other….but time and distance is slowly drawing us apart ………. The nightmare I had when i was leaving reliance..is turning into reality slowly slowly…….


The good part is most of us are not yet married. And our marriages are going to be the times we will again spend together…..i will make sure I will attend all the marriages….and I wish all of you too make sure that you will be there…………So lets start with prasanna…..and have some great get togethers….. hey guys i forgot to mention about the picture i have put above. This picture we took when bhoomi had a flying visit to gurgaon for few hours... one of the best pictures of the year.....

I think it is high time now I return to the router I was troubleshooting….if it will go down….. guys be prepared to see my mail to refer my CV In your companies……….. : - )

See you all again In my next blog….i hope I haven’t bug you much today..but even if I had.. then please don’t hesitate in bugging me with your comments about this blog…


Love,

Bugs.

This is How I landed up in Singapore

All of u don get confused by this name "Singapore" ....actually the truth is I have never visited Singapore.....But Haryana govt. says they will turn gurgaon into singapore in coming future.......and neways i don like this name "gurgaon" ...so u know.....just .........got an excuse to write it that way.. :-)

probably this is my first Blog. Actually i like reading people's blogs rather than writing one...because i am not at all a good narrator in the first place nor i like to share my personal views in public unless i am asked to give one............but just today morning i changed my mind...i was missing my friends out there in mumbai....i wanted to talk to all of them...i even called few of them...but then i thought if i wanna talk to everyone at the same time...a blog would be the best way of doing it..... and thats how i ended up writing my FIRST BLOG.....

Guys i miss you all.....i don't have words to express how lonely i feel when i think of one of those days when we were together in lodhivali........in koper khairane....in DAKC...in hospital canteen..............in food court.......on conf. calls........those mails.............those parties..........those night-outs..........long drives...........i mean each n every thing we did......i am not too sensitive a guy......but i almost end up crying when i start recalling my last two years.........may be two most memorable years of my life......may be in your life tooo....

These years have been a period of grooming emotionally.....professionally........socially........and by and large it was one of the richest learning experience in our lives....i don know how many of u agree with me..........

When i was having that last walk in DAKC..from D block to gate-1 along with my sister....we both were crying and we were feeling like.....may be we will never see this place again in our entire life....when sid came to see us on gate-1...i didn't have words....i wanted to burst out in tears ...but we controlled ourselves......sid..i can never forget that moment.....more and more days i am passing here in this new place i have started to fear that we might never meet again....u know...people say that the world is small and communication might have advanced..may be we r just a call away from each other......but i don feel like that..when we are not physically present it makes a difference...a hell lot of difference....

Let me share my experience in gurgaon which i had in past three months...may be it will lighten the mood.....it was too heavy for me tooo..:-)

Hummmm where to start???ok i will start with office..the word " office" itself sounds so boring..i know..but here it is not so boring...because all the time u r in office your ass is on fire...so u don have time to get bored...me..lavan and prady r on same floor..probably two-three workstations away but we hardly get time to meet each other....i can't believe we never had a single coffee together in pantry.....and in reliance..my god...i can't forget those freaking coffee breaks......remember guys...
we used to have long long breaks.......even in lunch we used to be center of attention......a GANG i should rather say...

..............first week of our job...ha ha..sid u were caught sleeping and bugger u got me involved tooo......like in school when we reveal our partners in crime...when we r caught....to save our ass.... but things r different here in gurgaon...
in equant....senior staff is French ....their pronunciations are horrible to decode.....shitt....half the time when i get escalation calls for some network faults or outages..i understand only 10% of the issue....u won't believe in starting...me n my colleagues used to put on the speaker phone and used to laugh like nuts when those goras used to frown over the phone waiting for us to respond....ha ha...job is quite tough..too much pressure..in fact operations is always a demanding job....above all that i have not yet adjusted to this shift pattern...night shifts are a royal pain in the ass.............

and let me tell u something about public transport here..i call it " New Bombay Rainbow Circus "...remember those six sitters in lodhivalis...here in those rickshaws they load at least 13-15 people....may be three in front including driver......8-10 in back...and the best part is two people standing on rear mud-guard... if this is not enough...they never drive below 70.....ha ha..thats how it looks like circus..touch-wood i never had to use one of those till now......

and the bus service...my god...all of these drivers were previously driving formula-one cars..so u can imagine how they would be driving...i always thank god after reaching home intact in "one piece" whenever i go out on my bike.......

This place is not that safe to freak-out late nights and party....after 11 hardly u see neone on roads....as specially for girls this place is not too safe...food is ok.....but i hate these haryana people and their mentality.......punjabis r ok...but these haryana JATTs are ...ruthless....

sam...remember the last party we had.......me.u....sid..saurabh..bhoomi and dash......we were almost 10 pegs down.....n bhoomi was driving.....u were womitting outside the window....i was sitting in front blabbering...some stupid jokes.....sid was laughing like nuts on those stupid jokes.....poor bhoomi....caught between three bewdas....ha ha..can't just forget that party...i even can't forget that party n kanchanjangha terrace...when malar was leaving...if i start recalling then i will never be able to end this blog....may be i am boring u guys now..its time to end this blog...

in short....nothing can match mumbai......there is no good life out here.....big malls......hot babes.....oily-buttery-spicy food....thick-skinned people....lonely days....screwed-up law n order......rash driving......BIG printing mistake on all real-estate bills.....light-bills... i hope u guys remember what we called a printing mistake )....and thats it..thats it about Gurgaon....

I wish i could go back in time and do all those things we did together....i don wanna regret about anything i did in navi-mumbai....everything i did was what i always wanted to do....may be something’s right and some wrong things...but i really wanted to do it all again and again....n again n again.......sid,sam,venki,gaurav,saurabh,rasi,jay,ayan,bhoomi,prachi,lavan,prady,moumi,muz,gayatri,malar,charu,ragha,prakash,prasanna,arun,eashwari,deb....my list is too long.....and all these people will always be part of my stories which i will be telling my children and grandchildren in future.......

Once again i want to say...I miss you all and i miss you so very much....take care and wait for my second boring blog very soon...

Love,
Bugs...Bhardwaj......Bhadwa-raj...Barath.....lamp-post.....podalanga...Pappa....Khal-nayak.......Bhai......Lambu...( does not matter by what name you know me....but what is more imp that u remember me )